At the age of 14, I woke up one morning with a question – what is the purpose of life?
At the age of 18, that question was answered through yoga philosophy and especially the teachings of Dr George King and The Aetherius Society: to go back to God through spiritual practice with its main focus being service.
At the age of 70, I knew why.
Seated on the terrace of our room at a hotel in Tenerife in September 2023, I entered a state of cosmic realization. It took me about an hour to do so, as my wife, Alyson, sat nearby performing spiritual practices.
For the first time kundalini reached the highest psychic center, Brahma Chakra, though not in its entirety, rising through each center in turn, inducing trance, circumnavigating the mind, transcending thought and visualization processes, into the I Am.
I had been on this journey once before in January when Ajna awakened in violet hues, but that was as far as I traveled then. I knew God as man, animal, mountain, even as a pebble, on this realm, on other realms, but all of them upon this Earth. It was a state of terrestrial enlightenment – oneness with all life on this planet – but it was not yet cosmic.
And so I proceeded, and the following is an account of what transpired which I offer for your consideration.
Deep breath followed by restraint. At first involuntarily – Kevala Kumbhaka – then deliberately. Breath – hold – meditate. Awareness of the chakras – a tensing of the sphincter muscles – effort, pressure, intensity, more effort, but not force.
The solar plexus is activated, but this time, instead of detachment, allowance followed by effort to raise, purify, transmute. I notice greater bliss caused by the transmutation process or, as the yogis might have put it, “frying the seeds”.
The heart center is activated, momentary bliss, onwards, upwards. The throat center is energized, and then I seek trance. Last time I resisted it, now I want it, but it is not easy to bring about – my negative karma acts as a resistor.
Awed by the fact that Dr King could enter full samadhi in just a couple of minutes, I so much want to be absorbed in a trance of oneness, albeit to a far lesser degree. But I also want the mystic fire of kundalini to move even higher to the very crown. Wishful thinking unless that wish becomes a reality.
The third eye – violet – strong – pulsing – but not my ultimate destination this time. Now, her tendrils reach even above the Christ center, to pierce Sahasrara – only to one degree but still to penetrate – a profusion of colors – the Golden Sun.
Here that misused, hackneyed saying, silence is golden, actually becomes true – a release from terrestrial bondage into the vastness of the cosmos. I know why this is sometimes called the thousand-petalled lotus – because a thousand represents infinity.
A sunbeam courses through space, across the oceans, through my being, traveling up the spine and into the crown center. I jerk, gulp and become still.
I enter oneness with God – the I am within us all – and now I am one with life in the cosmos.
First I am Mars.
Then for longer I am Venus. I appreciate my inhabitants, who feed my Flame and strive to express my essence, energizing and being consumed in my Flame. They are being made ready; they are constantly preparing for this.
As Saturn, I admire my inhabitants who want to do as their Lords, the Lords of the Sun, and become a part of me.
And as the Sun I emit a sound which causes all life to evolve. The energy from Earth, Her Flame, is the same energy as that I emit but in a different phase.
The energy I emit travels through every realm, is part of every realm, from the highest to the lowest and my sound reverberates beyond this solar system, raising and energizing. I momentarily know Mercury as a planet of change and Pluto as small but still grand.
And then I am the Galaxy Itself with a body which seems to be of a jelly-like substance, holding all in place and yet tenuous enough for movement to take place within it. Numerous craft form a tapestry of transit on multiple frequencies – a complex weave of moving luminous threads with one single purpose.
And there is only one purpose in only one word – evolution.
It’s the reason we exist. Interplanetary travelers make their journeys because of it. Planets and suns know it. It’s why the galaxy is in manifestation. Evolution – evolution for all life.
That’s why God involved Itself in matter because without involution there could be no evolution. What God wants is evolution. What the galaxy, the Sun and the planets want is evolution. One word – an often misunderstood word – from which all experience derives – the purpose of life.
And then back down to Earth with a sadness borne of disappointment. Because here most people don’t live to evolve, they live to find happiness whatever their idea of happiness may be. And even if they think they have found it, it’s only transient unless it’s the happiness derived from evolution.
Even bliss is not the goal, it is only an effect of the process – a wonderful sign that you are nearing your goal – but not the goal itself. And that must be where some gurus went wrong. They identified the process with the goal and got stuck along the way, misidentifying the blissful sensation with the oneness which is beyond all sensation or even mind. As a result, as Mars Sector 6 so brilliantly put it in the Sixth Freedom – the Power was still warm in those places.
Just as food can bring pleasure though its purpose is nourishment, and as air brings vitality though its purpose is preservation, evolution brings a deep joy which is eternal but not permanent. And therein lies a paradox which can only be resolved by evolution itself.
Yes, I know the answer now to the desperate question of my 14-year-old self, though I know it to only one degree of infinity.
I also know that I owe even that degree to my master, Dr George King, for the sacred initiations he bestowed upon me and the opportunities he entrusted me with, which led me to this place.
The path he left of world salvation can also be our key to God realization.